October 8, 2016
Sometimes I just have to wonder about everything. I get feeling sadness and loneliness to a degree that is almost unbearable. I look for someone to share what I’m feeling but, there is just no one that I feel safe sharing such depth of emotions with. Then I feel like crying, but that just gives the sadness an anchor to stay around longer and drive me even more insane. I then turn to music and the hope a happy memory will be forced to the front of my mind. Even the best memories though are often not enough anymore to fight off these feelings as I continue to look for something or someone that can help me feel better again. What are we to do when we cannot find someone to help us fight our way through, except a thought of something in a corner of our own minds that we just cannot focus on completely anymore?