Sometimes I feel so alone, sad and under. I don’t always understand why I feel this way but don’t know how to stop it. While I’m around people I have a shield up to protect myself from just breaking down and crying. But when I’m alone that shield falls apart and all I want to do is sit and cry. I try not to and look for any reason to see a glimmer of light; just sometimes I can’t seem to find even that smallest glimmer at all.
I want to tell the world how I feel but know I can’t do that. The ones that can’t understand would eclipse the few that might. I want something I can’t seem to find and yet don’t know what it is or where to look. I dream of someone somewhere that may fill this gap in me if only somewhat.